Anomalies and Other Eye Rolls


I’ve gone AWOL for a bit, it’s true.

Well, ladies and gents, it’s because I was in lOvE with the previously mentioned boy from the bus. Ha ha – I know what you’re thinking. You’ve known this boy for a total of a month and all of a sudden after sitting with him every morning and hanging out TWICE, you’re IN LOVE? Fake news.

And okay – I agree, I sound completely insane. But that’s kind of what crushes are for – aren’t they? They make you go insane for brief periods of time and are completely heart-wrenching and awesome at the same time. Right?

So basically the spark-notes of the spark-notes version of our love story goes like this:

Girl spots cute boy on bus. Girl fantasizes about cute boy for weeks. One day cute boy sits with girl. Boy and girl hit it off. Boy gives girl list of songs he likes. Girl gives her own list back. Boy gives girl little gifts every-now-and-then including but not limited to: a birthday note, a paper airplane made from a dollar bill, a couple of drawings, and some coffee grounds. And that’s where the good stops and the bad begins. And I’ll have you know right now, you don’t have to tell me that this whole situation already sounds like this boy is a life-ruiner, a heart-breaker, and a complete and utter ENIGMA– like what actual real-life boy does things like that?! And if you placed your bet on him being just that, congratulations, you’ve just won the grand prize.

This man was like a fictional character I had always dreamed about. Sometimes I feared that I had just made him up in my head because of the amount of boxes he was checking. He was everything – which sounds so STUPID (for lack of a better word) now that I think about it. I was so incredibly into this jackass I – okay wait. Let me finish the story so you understand fully.

Basically it ends like this: He came over after school one Wednesday afternoon and we had lunch and then decided to go for a walk. On our stroll, we got to the topic of miscommunications. Miscommunications and signs from the universe, and honestly it would’ve been a really good concrete conversation – until these words spilled out of his mouth in a jumbled, nervous rush: “Let’s just be friends.” 

Taken aback, I stopped dead in my tracks. “Friends,” I ask? My voice breaking a little. Don’t you dare cry, I think to myself. Thus ensues the biggest eye roll of a conversation I think I’ve ever had the displeasure of having with someone, ever. He went on about how “we’re just too different” and “he’d end up breaking my heart anyway so why try?” and “I just don’t understand him in the way he needs” and lastly, the most I-wanna-bang-my-face-against-a-wall quote “I’m just an anomaly, Megan.” 

Like –

Can you just picture this moment? I am standing there as this floppy-haired, green-eyed anomaly of a boy basically tells me that my brain just couldn’t possibly ever be on the same level as his (obviously) superior one. I don’t know if I’m the only one but honestly, my blood pressure is raising as we speak.

To be quite honest, this post has no purpose. Other than to just rant and to explain my brief hiatus from the blogging world – the blogosphere – if you will.

Anyway, after my day of wallowing in my own self-inflicted depression, I have since deleted all the songs he told me about, cried all my tears, and eaten all the ice cream in my fridge. I’ve done pretty much every cliché after-the-breakup move you can make, and I still don’t feel any better.

But alas, at the end of the day, I’ve reached a general decision:

I need to take a break from indie, floppy-haired, green-eyed boys.


Ear “Buds”

We live in an age of constant technological advancement. Our phones are attached to our hands, we think in abbreviations, and we have a need for nonstop stimulation. I’ll be the first to admit, I am contributing to this generation of technologically addicted zombies. I walk from class to class, from home to the bus, from the bus to coffee shops with ear buds in, drowning out my surroundings with my own personal choice of music. I avoid awkward silences by going on my phone. I waste an obscene amount of time on social media. And I never really even thought much of this until just the other day.

I’m going to let you in on a little secret.

I have a crush on this boy who rides the bus with me. It started out like this: day after day, week after week I would stare at him on the bus and wish he would make eye contact with me (yikes, I know!) but then one fateful Wednesday afternoon by complete coincidence he sat down NEXT TO ME. And then proceeded to talk to me and now has every day since (!!!). More about that situation later, but the point here is this:

This man. This young man who is living in the SAME 21st century I am, is doing so without the crutch of a smart phone. I know, everyone wrinkles their nose when I say it. You’re correct- he somehow lives his life without Instagram, Twitter, or Facebook. He doesn’t send 300+ snapchats a day and is somehow still living.

So THAT means that this boy and I only speak and interact during those few magical moments we share together on the bus and in between classes. We don’t snapchat or text into the late hours of night. And to be quite honest, it’s been absolutely refreshing. It makes our time together that much more meaningful.

The other day, we were listening to music together and he takes out an ear bud, and looks at me and asks, “Do you ever feel guilty for listening to music in public?” And accompanied by a long pause on my part, I answered truthfully- yes.

And why, you may ask? Well, I’ll explain it to you how cute-boy-from-the-bus put it.

When you put those beloved ear buds into your ears, you’re closing out the world. And yes, sometimes you need that and it’s useful and downright necessary sometimes. But other times, you’re doing just that- closing people out. You’re missing out on those random conversations you could have with the person sitting next to you on the bus, in between classes, or strolling down the street. You’re missing out on the sounds of LIFE in general.

So these things called ear “buds” are probably the most antisocial, anti-“BUDDY” (see what I did there?) things of them all.

My point here is this: maybe if you take your ear buds out once in a while and actually enter the world you’re living in, you’ll surprise yourself. And maybe the world will surprise you.



Well folks.

We’ve done it.

We are 20 years old.

And now it’s a new week, a new month, and a new YEAR OF LIFE. My weekend was one for the books, that’s for sure. Let me explain:

I woke up Saturday morning and made the trek down State Street toward the Madison Farmer’s Market (one of the best in the Midwest) (and yes, I’m an expert). I toggled along in a slow trickle with the rest of the crowd, until I came to my favorite scone tent. I’m telling you right now- these babies are the best hands down. A huge variety of flavors, along with tons of vegan options as well!

A day that begins with the Farmer’s Market is a day well spent.

An expert said that once I think.

Then my friends and I went to dinner at BelAir, an amazing Mexican restaurant downtown. We feasted until our stomachs hurt on chips and guac and an array of tacos. Amazing.

After dinner, everyone came over to my apartment, where lo and behold, my friends had decorated with balloons that screamed 2-0 and streamers and a fucking piñata. I mean, come on, I’ve told you I have the best friends, right? Now do you believe me?

So we spent the night laughing, dancing to ABBA, and enjoying each other’s presence. I, being the birthday girl, sadly tapped out around 11:30pm due to a mixture of liquids I had consumed. 😉

All in all, my 20th birthday was a success and a half. I hope each and every one of my friends knows how much I love and cherish their friendship and am so SO appreciative to have them in my life.

But now

Dun, dun, DUN…..

It be Monday. And I know, I know- que the groans, que the moans- we get it. You hate Mondays. But I do not. I choose to look at them as a fresh start, a new beginning.

Who cares if last week my crush didn’t ask me out even when I thought he definitely would? Who cares if I had to work 3 days in a row last week? Who cares if it rained 4/5 days? Not me! Last week is in the past, my friends.

Sometimes Monday’s tend to feel a bit blurry. Like something is a bit off, perhaps due to the fact that you just had two days off from work or school, and you need to get back into the swing of things. Occasionally I feel like an imposter in my own skin on Mondays, like I’m just going through these motions that I know are CORRECT but I don’t necessarily know WHY. It’s just me adjusting back to my weekly schedule, I guess.

But MAYBE, instead of falling back into that boring, gray, mundane weekly routine that we allllll have, perhaps this week’s challenge could be to do something a bit different. Take a detour from your usual path just a little. Perhaps treat yourself to a biscotti and coffee, strike up a conversation with the person next to you on the bus, or I don’t know, wear red lipstick.

Do something outside of your usual box, and shake yourself out of that Mon-daze.

The Big 2-0


In fourth grade, I turned 10 years old. I remember my teacher turning to me and saying, “A decade old, that’s pretty big.” And now here I am, ten years later, another DECADE older.

It’s kinda nuts to think about leaving my teenage years behind me (another flashback to turning 13, finally becoming a teenager and definitely living up the expectation of “teenage angst”, much to my parents dismay). But 20 years old? I mean, come on, that’s a whole different ball game, my friends.

I’ve just begun my sophomore year of college, I have moved back to Wisconsin after a year away at a small private school in Iowa. It was a year full of tears, stress, and quite frankly, it fucking sucked. Let me explain:

Heading into my freshman year of college, I had it all figured out and was going to become an Occupational Therapist and make serious bank and who cares if I had a billion dollars in student debt from an expensive undergraduate degree and then an even more expensive graduate degree?

It was my “dream”.

I put “dream” in quotation marks because it was never really MY dream, it was a pathway that was planned out for me from the start. A pathway that I (and society) concocted that would get me money and AFTER the money then happiness would follow. But then everything changed.

One day, my father caught a glimpse of my silly little drawings I did for fun and said to me, “Megan, why not do something you actually love? Why not go into Graphic Design or Illustration?” and I’m like- hold the phone. You mean, I could go to SCHOOL, and pursue something I actually LIKE? What kind of world was this? Who forgot to tell me about THAT path? Why had I never even CONSIDERED this?

And that’s where I’ve landed so far. I am currently pursuing some kind of career (haha) in illustration and perhaps writing or maybe I’ll design clothes or work for a magazine…  Do you see what I’m trying to say here? I still don’t know shit!


I’m coming to realize that no one really does. And that is OKAY. It’s wonderful actually. It’s an amazing, freeing feeling to have the entire world ahead of you that you could use to your advantage from ANY ANGLE, from ALL THE ANGLES.

So yeah. I turn 20 years old in 2 days.

The big 2-0.

And this is MY year. I can feel it.